He doesn't have to pay off the debt of my sacrifice. There are no debts. But I see some of what you're saying. I probably am acting too desperate but when I back off and try to respect his boundaries--which I'm learning about--he gets upset. It's like he says one thing but wants me to do something else.
I don't know what "love" means. Where I come from we weren't taught anything about that. We were pets. Love was a luxury. He's everything to me. Nothing is more important. Is that love? Have you ever been in love? You think it's possible that he doesn't want to be in love with me? I mean, I get it. I try to tell myself spending time is enough because it's more than I ever thought I'd get and definitely more than I deserve but I get greedy.
Thank you. I'll consider everything you said and figure out what to do about it moving forward and try to be less desperate and needy.
[Try being the key word though he is genuinely grateful for the advice because he's stumbling and fumbling in the dark here.]
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I don't know what "love" means. Where I come from we weren't taught anything about that. We were pets. Love was a luxury. He's everything to me. Nothing is more important. Is that love? Have you ever been in love? You think it's possible that he doesn't want to be in love with me? I mean, I get it. I try to tell myself spending time is enough because it's more than I ever thought I'd get and definitely more than I deserve but I get greedy.
Thank you. I'll consider everything you said and figure out what to do about it moving forward and try to be less desperate and needy.
[Try being the key word though he is genuinely grateful for the advice because he's stumbling and fumbling in the dark here.]